Letter to My Daughters

little ladies

It might be PMS or allergy medication but I’m feeling  overwhelmed by things that I want to say to my little girls when they are a little older. So here goes…

Dear Loves of My Life,

First off, I want you to know that being a kid isn’t always easy. I will try my darndest to never tell you that childhood (particularly high school) is the best time of your life. I think those parents are simply saying, “enjoy life before you have to stress about employment, taxes etc.” What they seem to forget is that childhood is full of worry, stresses and insecurity. I remember, I was there.

I was the kid who handed my mom ten fingernails, meticulously chewed off, on my way out the door to kindergarten. I was the kid who started ditching first grade because of some unremembered anxiety that tore away at me. On that note, should you ever require a mental health day that involves staying in your jammies all day and watching crappy tv, I’m planning on being there for you. Just so you know, you only get two of these per school year so book them wisely.

When you read this someday, my darlings, I will be even less cool than currently am. This is an astonishing thought as I am hardly the poster child for coolness now. But yes, I will get even less so as the years wane. Such is the way. I’m writing this now in hopes that we can bond in a past/future kind of way. As you are so going to look at me like I’m full of crap when I throw all the classic ‘mom’ platitudes your way in the coming years.

Life is an amazing adventure! It is jammed packed with dreams, both realized and not. It is full of hope and expectation. It is riddled with mind numbing possibility and earth shattering sadness. There will be joy so great you think you head will blow off and sadness so deep that you will want to die. That’s the truth and through it all I will love you from the deepest part of my being. You are my babies and you are best thing that I could ever give the world.

Things that do not matter; petty people who try to belittle you and make you feel less-than because you don’t subscribe to their ideals. Designer labels and new cars do not matter. The boy of the minute, that you think you will die if he doesn’t like you back. Gossip does not matter.

Things that do matter. How you treat people matters. It will pave your way in life. Be kind and patient. Be thoughtful of your words before you let them out of your mouth.

My love for you is the greatest gift I can give to you. I will always have your back and I will always fight for you, even if I sometimes have to fight against you to succeed.

Be true to yourself, whoever that may be. I don’t care if you’re gay, straight, thin, fat or if all your clothes are tie-dye (although I will probably try to talk you out of that one.) You are mine and you are perfect!

Life Close Up

self portrati

What I’ve learned about Homesteading is that sometimes it’s better to look at things close up. Close up you can enjoy the beauty of detail without constantly noticing all that still needs to be done around you. Close up, you can pretend that there aren’t garden hoses running willy nilly throughout waiting for the irrigation system to finally be tweaked. Close up you can focus on the perfection of creation that surrounds you. In that vein, Mr. DeMille, I’m ready for my close-up.

Here’s just a small taste of what life looks like for The New Pioneers –close up.

apple blossomThe first apple blossom. This one tree alone will keep us in Apple Pie, Apple Butter and Apple Jam until the next harvest.

blueberry

One of about eighteen blueberry bushes. If you look close, you can see the berries have begun to form.

parsley and toms

One of two beds dedicated to tomatoes. The Parsley reminds us of all the tomato sauce that we’ll can for fall/winter.

carrots and onions

The carrots and onions are flourishing.

turnips

Turnips are on fire!

What I haven’t shown you is the lettuce garden, already supplying our greens, the rhubarb, the peas, the plum trees, the pear trees, the other assorted veggies. This my friends is why you haven’t seen a recent post. Our cups runneth over!

And now for some random pretty that we have in bloom.

camillia

callalilly      hollyhock

lavender  iris seeanothis

purplw iris    Scottish Broom window boxes

Wishing you all the joy in the details and enough blurring around the edges that you overlook some of life’s messes!